Sorry for all the wordy posts but I'm not used to uploading pictures onto my blog and am too lazy to do that, haha!

So the major thing for 2011 was of course O level.

I think last year passed rather slowly before the O levels, with all the studying, lessons and etc. And actually i think i didnt do my best with all the distractions and long breaks i take after meals :x

so now i'm rather worried about my results, especially higher chinese and humanities. But well there's no point dwelling about all these now. And how i hope my life will remain at this phase - the after o's and waiting for results part of life. But i know that's impossible.

The very big first school event in 2011 for me was SOOC. At times i look back and thought about things that happened. Yes if i had another chance, there would be a number of things which i would have done differently. I don't want to reveal so much about the mistakes because they're rather personal so i shall just say what they are: selection of comm members, discipline of OGLs and prioritising. Okay sounds like too much info. I know it's impossible for me to have another chance to organise SOOC again so i hope my juniors won't repeat the same mistakes and make future SOOC even better! :)

Then although i wasnt in school team for netball but i'm glad i got the chance to interact with the sec ones and build up my relationship with them :) Netball taught me that passion gives you the determination to work hard and carry on. Netball taught me that there is a difference between needing and wanting a break. I like how netballers are rather disciplined. I like how netballers are bonded (maybe not as a whole CCA but at least within batches). I like how netballers encourage each other when we jog during warm up and how we communicate especially when we do square drill. That's one of the reasons why i love doing square drill/4 corners. So i hope my juniors will continue to work hard and stop skipping CCA without a valid reason!

My last school event before stepping down was Speech Day 2011. It was great that i got to work with Hot Haiqal again as emcees. Yes i know my emcee-ing skills suck very much and i certainly did not know why Ms Jasmine Lim wanted me to be the emcee again but i'm really glad i got the chance to take up this role again and not make the same mistakes as 2010.

I went for KL trip with 3 teachers and 28 students. I admit I wasnt looking forward to it initially because i really didnt know what would await for us when we reach there. And what's more i somehow became the leader of Group 2 when nobody mentioned about it or whatsoever. So i didnt really lead my group and we made many mistakes but i'm sure all of us learnt valuable lessons :) and i really love group 2 and i love how we shared our opinions about each other on the last night and how vinegar played in the hotel room on the last night. It was really funny :) So although i had to sacrifice my holiday lessons for the KL trip, i learnt lessons during the trip which i can never learn in the classrooms.

Next we officially stepped down. Seeing the next batch of exco running PSLT and running around with all the walkie talkies revived my memories for SOOC and Student Council events instantly. I remember i even took Qian Ying's talkie to pm Kester to ask him to tuck in his shirt, LOL. And i definitely miss the memories with my beloved 9th EXCO. Yes I'm definitely not a very good president and i'm extremely apologetic towards my 2 lovely Deputy Presidents for all the lack of communication, but I'm extremely grateful towards each and everyone of you for tolerating with me and my long and boring meetings. Thank you for all of the lessons all of you taught me and I'm really sorry if I've hurt any of you unknowingly. Thank you for letting me have the chance lead all of you and i hope all of you have taken away valuable lessons as well :)

And i spent my upper secondary studying life with 3/5'10 and 4/5'11. Yes our performance is below teachers' expectations and some of us just refuse to step out of their own world to bond with the class. I keep so quiet in class when in teachers' opinion, i'm supposed to voice out more. We aren't very bonded but i must say i really enjoyed myself at the class chalet. If only it was 3D2N! to think i was still considering whether i should go for the chalet since i was working in the day and many of the usuals i hang out with in class were not going, i'm glad i decided to make the effort to turn up for it and hey, i'm extremely sure i made the right choice! and i'm glad i managed to convince mummy to let me stay overnight because joker played at night was really fun! So i'm thankful to those who made the effort to turn up :)

Then was all the mugging for O's and some friendship problems here and there. Well I've written dedication messages to my friends in the previous entries so i shall skip to the conclusion of 2011. i guess i learnt how to appreciate people around me more (especially my family). I learnt more about myself and i wonder what 2012 has for me. So i shall embrace what 2012 has for me and continue to reflect and learn. (okay quite a lousy conclusion due to my lousy summary skills and limited vocabulary)

So here are my new year resolutions for 2012:

1. Be more patient and less fussy

Yes stop being particular about small details and don't get fed up so easily when somebody or something interrupts my eating timeline. lol

2. Love more

Time to weaken the barrier i have of worrying i'll get hurt. (okay this is difficult) but not too low of course. reason for this resolution is because i realise i've been hurting people around me who love me a lot. So i should stop being so selfish and perhaps love them more :)

3. Be more generous

Yes somemore i'm getting my pay soooooooooon

4. Stop procastinating!!!

Yes especially about exercising! Stop finding excuses for yourself why you shouldnt run! I need to shed the fats off LIKE SERIOUSLY. So please be more self-disciplined. It's okay to eat some sinful treats at times but not too much. And please don't start eating ice cream and not knowing how to stop later on. You know the price you have to pay later on.

5. Be more sociable

Yes please talk more. And make more friends. You're gonna be only 17 this year you know! speaking of that, i really don't want to grow old. I want to remain as a teenager forever. I DON'T WANT TO GROW OLD T.T but time won't stop for me. So please seize the time to make more friends and hang out with them and laugh and spend memorable times with them. But this is again, difficult since i have really lousy interacting skills.

And in terms of skills, i'm considering to pick up chinese orchestra or student council as my cca if i go JC. Chinese orchestra so that i can learn how to play an instrument. Student Council so that i will be given opportunities to lead and not repeat the same mistakes i've made in secondary school. hmm.

So these are my new year resolutions! Happy 2012! :)